Though i lost a lover but it will never be a loss in my life. I gained beautiful memories, feelings on how is it to be loved.. I realized that i have a lot of friends who are always there for me when i need them, and best of all, i learnt how to become a better zi xin!

My out of balance lifestyle led me to a near fatal! My emotional collapse brought me into a spiritual crisis that forced me to confront myself the condition of my life. Hoping to find a balanced lifestyle, i finally knew that i need a “refresher course” for my own self to seek the happiness and fulfillment within myself. And because of this learning experience, i found out that i had been living for ernest more than for myself. My tears, smiles and every thoughts were linked to him. Unconsciously, i was so tired and my energy were drained out. My mind was only able to visualize and function for ernest. It was not his fault but mine, who allowed my thinkings controlled my mind and life.

Finally i realized that it is now time for me to seek for a life with passion, purpose and peace for myself. I need to embark on a “self-mastery” journey to not only make myself a better one, but too.. So that i can live happier! I understood the real meaning of “everything happens for a reason”.

Treating this as a new beginning of my life, i received a gift from God which i have been longing for. I got myself my first, ever full-time job and it is the job which i have been dreaming to be, SIA Stewardess! *Haha* My training will commence on next Wednesday and i am looking forward to it! Right now, my only focus will be my career and as for love life, i have seen it as “if he’s meant to be mine, he’ll and shall be”.

I shall entrust and believe God will arrange the best for me at the right time!